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Priest Nikolai Agafonov

True stories. Stories

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© Nikolay Agafonov, priest, 2013

© Nikeya Publishing House, 2013

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Preface

The miraculous is always with us, but we do not notice it. It tries to speak to us, but we do not hear it, because we are deaf from the roar of a godless civilization. It walks next to us, breathing right down our necks. But we do not feel it, because our feelings have been dulled by the countless temptations of this age. It runs ahead and looks straight into our eyes, but we don’t see it. We are blinded by our false greatness - the greatness of a man who can move mountains without any faith, only with the help of soulless technical progress. And if we suddenly see or hear, we hasten to pass by, pretend that we didn’t notice or hear. After all, in the secret place of our being, we guess that, having accepted MIRACLE as the reality of our life, we will have to change our life. We must become restless in this world and holy fools for the rational ones of this world. And this is already scary or, on the contrary, so funny that you want to cry.

Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov

Killed while on duty

Non-criminal history

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

And when he’s finished with everyone, then he’ll say to us: “Come out,” he’ll say, “you too!” Come out drunk, come out weak, come out drunk!” And we will all go out without shame and stand. And he will say: “You pigs! The image of the beast and its seal; but come too!” And the wise will say, the wise will say: “Lord! Why do you accept these people?” And he will say: “That is why I accept them, the wise, because I accept them, the wise, because not one of these himself considered himself worthy of this...”

F. M. Dostoevsky.

Crime and Punishment

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when a sharp bell rang in the diocesan administration. Stepan Semyonovich, the night watchman, who had just laid down to rest, grumbled dissatisfiedly: “Who is this difficult one to wear?”, shuffling with worn-out house slippers, he trudged to the door. Without even asking who was calling, he shouted irritably, stopping in front of the door:

- There is no one here, come tomorrow morning!

– Urgent telegram, please accept and sign.

Having received the telegram, the watchman brought it to his closet, turned on the table lamp and, putting on his glasses, began to read: “On July 27, 1979, Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov died tragically in the line of duty, we are waiting for further instructions. Church Council of St. Nicholas Church of the village of Buzikhino.”

“The Kingdom of Heaven to God’s servant Father Fyodor,” Stepan Semyonovich said sympathetically and re-read the telegram out loud again. The wording was confusing: “He died in the line of duty...” This didn’t fit at all with the priestly rank.

“Well, there’s a policeman or a fireman, or at least a watchman, of course, God forbid, that’s understandable, but Father Fyodor?” – Stepan Semenovich shrugged his shoulders in bewilderment.

He knew Father Fyodor well when he was still serving in cathedral. Father differed from other clergy of the cathedral in his simplicity of communication and responsive heart, for which he was loved by the parishioners. Ten years ago, Fyodor’s father experienced great grief in his family - his only son Sergei was killed. This happened when Sergei was rushing home to please his parents with passing the exam for medical school, although Father Fedor dreamed that his son would study at the seminary.

“But since he chose the path not of a spiritual, but of a physical doctor, all the same - God grant him happiness... He will treat me in my old age,” Father Fyodor said to Stepan Semenovich when they were sitting over tea in the cathedral gatehouse. It was then that this terrible news caught them.

On the way from the institute, Sergei saw four guys beating a fifth guy right next to the bus stop. The women at the bus stop tried to reason with the hooligans by shouting, but they, not paying attention, kicked the already lying man. The men standing at the bus stop turned away in shame. Sergei, without hesitation, rushed to the rescue. The investigation found out who stabbed him with a knife only a month later. What good would it do, no one could return his son to Father Fyodor.

Approved for distribution by the Publishing Council of the Russian Orthodox Church IS 12-218-1567

© Nikolay Agafonov, priest, 2013

© Nikeya Publishing House, 2013

All rights reserved. No part of the electronic version of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any means, including posting on the Internet or corporate networks, for private or public use without the written permission of the copyright owner.

©The electronic version of the book was prepared by liters company (www.litres.ru)

Preface

The miraculous is always with us, but we do not notice it. It tries to speak to us, but we do not hear it, because we are deaf from the roar of a godless civilization. It walks next to us, breathing right down our necks. But we do not feel it, because our feelings have been dulled by the countless temptations of this age. It runs ahead and looks straight into our eyes, but we don’t see it. We are blinded by our false greatness - the greatness of a man who can move mountains without any faith, only with the help of soulless technical progress. And if we suddenly see or hear, we hasten to pass by, pretend that we didn’t notice or hear. After all, in the secret place of our being, we guess that, having accepted MIRACLE as the reality of our life, we will have to change our life. We must become restless in this world and holy fools for the rational ones of this world. And this is already scary or, on the contrary, so funny that you want to cry.

Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov

Killed while on duty

Non-criminal history

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

And when he’s finished with everyone, then he’ll say to us: “Come out,” he’ll say, “you too!” Come out drunk, come out weak, come out drunk!” And we will all go out without shame and stand. And he will say: “You pigs! The image of the beast and its seal; but come too!” And the wise will say, the wise will say: “Lord! Why do you accept these people?” And he will say: “That is why I accept them, the wise, because I accept them, the wise, because not one of these himself considered himself worthy of this...”

F. M. Dostoevsky.

Crime and Punishment

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when a sharp bell rang in the diocesan administration. Stepan Semyonovich, the night watchman, who had just laid down to rest, grumbled dissatisfiedly: “Who is this difficult one to wear?”, shuffling with worn-out house slippers, he trudged to the door. Without even asking who was calling, he shouted irritably, stopping in front of the door:

- There is no one here, come tomorrow morning!

– Urgent telegram, please accept and sign.

Having received the telegram, the watchman brought it to his closet, turned on the table lamp and, putting on his glasses, began to read: “On July 27, 1979, Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov died tragically in the line of duty, we are waiting for further instructions. Church Council of St. Nicholas Church of the village of Buzikhino.”

“The Kingdom of Heaven to God’s servant Father Fyodor,” Stepan Semyonovich said sympathetically and re-read the telegram out loud again. The wording was confusing: “He died in the line of duty...” This didn’t fit at all with the priestly rank.

“Well, there’s a policeman or a fireman, or at least a watchman, of course, God forbid, that’s understandable, but Father Fyodor?” – Stepan Semenovich shrugged his shoulders in bewilderment.

He knew Father Fyodor well when he still served in the cathedral. Father differed from other clergy of the cathedral in his simplicity of communication and responsive heart, for which he was loved by the parishioners. Ten years ago, Fyodor’s father experienced great grief in his family - his only son Sergei was killed. This happened when Sergei was rushing home to please his parents with passing the exam for medical school, although Father Fedor dreamed that his son would study at the seminary.

“But since he chose the path not of a spiritual, but of a physical doctor, all the same - God grant him happiness... He will treat me in my old age,” Father Fyodor said to Stepan Semenovich when they were sitting over tea in the cathedral gatehouse. It was then that this terrible news caught them.

On the way from the institute, Sergei saw four guys beating a fifth guy right next to the bus stop. The women at the bus stop tried to reason with the hooligans by shouting, but they, not paying attention, kicked the already lying man. The men standing at the bus stop turned away in shame. Sergei, without hesitation, rushed to the rescue. The investigation found out who stabbed him with a knife only a month later. What good would it do, no one could return his son to Father Fyodor.

For forty days after the death of his son, Father Fedor served funeral masses and memorial services every day. And as forty days passed, they often began to notice Father Fyodor drunk. It happened that he came to the service drunk. But they tried not to reproach him, understanding his condition, they sympathized with him. However, this soon became increasingly difficult to do. The bishop several times transferred Father Fyodor to the position of psalm-reader to correct him from drinking wine. But one incident forced the bishop to take extreme measures and dismiss Father Fedor as a staff member.

Once, having received a month’s salary, Father Fyodor went into a glass shop, which was located not far from the cathedral. The regulars of this establishment treated the priest with respect, for out of his kindness he treated them at his own expense. That day was the anniversary of his son’s death, and Father Fyodor, throwing his entire salary on the counter, ordered everyone who wanted to be treated to food throughout the evening. The storm of delight that arose in the tavern resulted in a solemn procession at the end of the drinking session. A stretcher was brought from a nearby construction site, Father Fyodor was hoisted onto it and, declaring him the Great Pope of the Rumochnaya, they carried him home across the entire block. After this incident, Father Fedor ended up in exile. He was without ministry for two years before he was appointed to the Buzikha parish.

Stepan Semyonovich re-read the telegram for the third time and, sighing, began to dial the bishop’s home telephone number. Bishop Slava’s cell attendant answered the phone.

“His Eminence is busy, read the telegram to me, I’ll write it down and then pass it on.”

The contents of the telegram puzzled Slava no less than the watchman. He began to think: “To die tragically in our time is a couple of trifles, which happens quite often. For example, last year a protodeacon and his wife died in a car accident. But what do job responsibilities have to do with it? What might happen during a worship service? Probably these Buzikha people got something mixed up.”

Slava was from those places and knew the village of Buzikhino well. It was famous obstinate character villagers The bishop also had to deal with the unbridled temper of the Buzikha people. The Buzikha parish gave him more trouble than all the other parishes in the diocese combined. No matter what priest the bishop appointed to them, he did not stay there long. It lasts a year, or at most another, and complaints, letters, and threats begin. No one could please the Buzikha people. In one year, three abbots had to be replaced. The bishop got angry and didn’t appoint anyone to them for two months. For these two months, the Buzikhinites, like non-popovites, themselves read and sang in church. Only this was of little consolation; you couldn’t serve mass without a priest, so they began to ask for a priest. The bishop tells them:

“I don’t have a priest for you, no one wants to come to your parish anymore!”

But they don’t back down, they ask, they plead:

- At least someone, at least for a while, otherwise Easter is approaching! How in such a great holiday without father? Sin.

Approved for distribution by the Publishing Council of the Russian Orthodox Church IS 12-218-1567

© Nikolay Agafonov, priest, 2013

© Nikeya Publishing House, 2013

All rights reserved. No part of the electronic version of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any means, including posting on the Internet or corporate networks, for private or public use without the written permission of the copyright owner.

Preface

The miraculous is always with us, but we do not notice it. It tries to speak to us, but we do not hear it, because we are deaf from the roar of a godless civilization. It walks next to us, breathing right down our necks. But we do not feel it, because our feelings have been dulled by the countless temptations of this age. It runs ahead and looks straight into our eyes, but we don’t see it. We are blinded by our false greatness - the greatness of a man who can move mountains without any faith, only with the help of soulless technical progress. And if we suddenly see or hear, we hasten to pass by, pretend that we didn’t notice or hear. After all, in the secret place of our being, we guess that, having accepted MIRACLE as the reality of our life, we will have to change our life. We must become restless in this world and holy fools for the rational ones of this world. And this is already scary or, on the contrary, so funny that you want to cry.

Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov

Killed while on duty
Non-criminal history

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

And when he’s finished with everyone, then he’ll say to us: “Come out,” he’ll say, “you too!” Come out drunk, come out weak, come out drunk!” And we will all go out without shame and stand. And he will say: “You pigs! The image of the beast and its seal; but come too!” And the wise will say, the wise will say: “Lord! Why do you accept these people?” And he will say: “That is why I accept them, the wise, because I accept them, the wise, because not one of these himself considered himself worthy of this...”

F. M. Dostoevsky.
Crime and Punishment

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when a sharp bell rang in the diocesan administration. Stepan Semyonovich, the night watchman, who had just laid down to rest, grumbled dissatisfiedly: “Who is this difficult one to wear?”, shuffling with worn-out house slippers, he trudged to the door. Without even asking who was calling, he shouted irritably, stopping in front of the door:

- There is no one here, come tomorrow morning!

– Urgent telegram, please accept and sign.

Having received the telegram, the watchman brought it to his closet, turned on the table lamp and, putting on his glasses, began to read: “On July 27, 1979, Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov died tragically in the line of duty, we are waiting for further instructions. Church Council of St. Nicholas Church of the village of Buzikhino.”

“The Kingdom of Heaven to God’s servant Father Fyodor,” Stepan Semyonovich said sympathetically and re-read the telegram out loud again. The wording was confusing: “He died in the line of duty...” This didn’t fit at all with the priestly rank.

“Well, there’s a policeman or a fireman, or at least a watchman, of course, God forbid, that’s understandable, but Father Fyodor?” – Stepan Semenovich shrugged his shoulders in bewilderment.

He knew Father Fyodor well when he still served in the cathedral. Father differed from other clergy of the cathedral in his simplicity of communication and responsive heart, for which he was loved by the parishioners. Ten years ago, Fyodor’s father experienced great grief in his family - his only son Sergei was killed. This happened when Sergei was rushing home to please his parents with passing the exam for medical school, although Father Fedor dreamed that his son would study at the seminary.

“But since he chose the path not of a spiritual, but of a physical doctor, all the same - God grant him happiness... He will treat me in my old age,” Father Fyodor said to Stepan Semenovich when they were sitting over tea in the cathedral gatehouse. It was then that this terrible news caught them.

On the way from the institute, Sergei saw four guys beating a fifth guy right next to the bus stop. The women at the bus stop tried to reason with the hooligans by shouting, but they, not paying attention, kicked the already lying man. The men standing at the bus stop turned away in shame. Sergei, without hesitation, rushed to the rescue. The investigation found out who stabbed him with a knife only a month later. What good would it do, no one could return his son to Father Fyodor.

For forty days after the death of his son, Father Fedor served funeral masses and memorial services every day. And as forty days passed, they often began to notice Father Fyodor drunk. It happened that he came to the service drunk. But they tried not to reproach him, understanding his condition, they sympathized with him. However, this soon became increasingly difficult to do. The bishop several times transferred Father Fyodor to the position of psalm-reader to correct him from drinking wine. But one incident forced the bishop to take extreme measures and dismiss Father Fedor as a staff member.

Once, having received a month’s salary, Father Fyodor went into a glass shop, which was located not far from the cathedral. The regulars of this establishment treated the priest with respect, for out of his kindness he treated them at his own expense. That day was the anniversary of his son’s death, and Father Fyodor, throwing his entire salary on the counter, ordered everyone who wanted to be treated to food throughout the evening. The storm of delight that arose in the tavern resulted in a solemn procession at the end of the drinking session. A stretcher was brought from a nearby construction site, Father Fyodor was hoisted onto it and, declaring him the Great Pope of the Rumochnaya, they carried him home across the entire block. After this incident, Father Fedor ended up in exile. He was without ministry for two years before he was appointed to the Buzikha parish.

Stepan Semyonovich re-read the telegram for the third time and, sighing, began to dial the bishop’s home telephone number. Bishop Slava’s cell attendant answered the phone.

“His Eminence is busy, read the telegram to me, I’ll write it down and then pass it on.”

The contents of the telegram puzzled Slava no less than the watchman. He began to think: “To die tragically in our time is a couple of trifles, which happens quite often. For example, last year a protodeacon and his wife died in a car accident. But what do job responsibilities have to do with it? What might happen during a worship service? Probably these Buzikha people got something mixed up.”

Slava was from those places and knew the village of Buzikhino well. It was famous for the obstinate character of the villagers. The bishop also had to deal with the unbridled temper of the Buzikha people. The Buzikha parish gave him more trouble than all the other parishes in the diocese combined. No matter what priest the bishop appointed to them, he did not stay there long. It lasts a year, or at most another, and complaints, letters, and threats begin. No one could please the Buzikha people. In one year, three abbots had to be replaced. The bishop got angry and didn’t appoint anyone to them for two months. For these two months, the Buzikhinites, like non-popovites, themselves read and sang in church. Only this was of little consolation; you couldn’t serve mass without a priest, so they began to ask for a priest. The bishop tells them:

“I don’t have a priest for you, no one wants to come to your parish anymore!”

But they don’t back down, they ask, they plead:

- At least someone, at least for a while, otherwise Easter is approaching! What is it like on such a great holiday without a priest? Sin.

The bishop had mercy on them, summoned Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov, who was on staff at that time, and said to him:

- I give you, Father Fedor, last chance for correction, I appoint you as rector in Buzikhino, if you stay there for three years, I will forgive everything.

Father Fyodor bowed at the bishop's feet with joy and, swearing that he had not taken a single gram in his mouth for a month, he went contentedly to his destination.

A month passes, then another, a year. No one sends complaints to the bishop. This pleases His Eminence, but at the same time worries him: it is strange that there are no complaints. He sends Dean Father Leonid Zvyakin to find out how things are going. Father Leonid went and reports:

“Everything is fine, the parishioners are happy, the church council is happy, Father Fyodor is also happy.”

The bishop marveled at such a miracle, and with him all the diocesan workers, but they began to wait: it could not be that it would last a second year.

But another year passed, the third began. The bishop could not stand it, calls Father Fyodor and asks:

- Tell me, Father Fedor, how did you manage to do it with the Buzikha people? mutual language find?

“But it wasn’t difficult,” answers Father Fyodor. “As soon as I came to them, I immediately recognized their main weakness and played on it.

- How is this possible? – the bishop was surprised.

“And I understood, Vladyka, that the Buzikha people are an extremely proud people, they don’t like to be taught, so I told them at the first sermon: so, they say, and so, brothers and sisters, do you know for what purpose I came to did the bishop appoint you? They immediately became wary: “For what purpose?” - “And with such a goal, my beloved, that you guide me on the true path.” Here their mouths were completely open in surprise, and I continued to wallow: “I didn’t finish any seminaries, but from childhood I sang and read in the choir, and therefore I became a priest as if semi-literate. And due to lack of education, he began to drink excessively, for which he was dismissed from regular service.” Here they nodded their heads sympathetically. “And, left,” I say, “without means of food, I eked out a miserable existence outside the state. To top it all off, my wife left me, not wanting to share my fate with me.” As I said this, tears welled up in my eyes. I look, and the parishioners’ eyes are wet. “I would have been lost,” I continue, “but our bishop, God bless him, with his bright mind realized that for my own salvation it is necessary to appoint me to your parish, and says to me: “No one, Father Fedor, you in the entire diocese he cannot help, except for the Buzikha people, for in this village live a wise, kind and pious people. They will guide you on the right path." Therefore, I ask and pray you, dear brothers and sisters, do not leave me with your wise advice, support me, and point out where I am wrong. For from now on I entrust my destiny into your hands.” Since then we have lived in peace and harmony.

This story, however, made a depressing impression on the bishop.

- What is it, Father Fedor? How dare you attribute to me words that I did not utter? I sent you as a shepherd, and you came to the parish as a lost sheep. It turns out that you don’t shepherd the flock, but she shepherds you?

“But for me,” Father Fyodor answers, “it doesn’t matter who shepherds whom, as long as there is peace and everyone is happy.”

This answer completely infuriated the bishop, and he sent Father Fyodor out of office.

The Buzikha people did not accept the newly sent priest at all and threatened that if Father Fyodor was not returned to them, they would go all the way to the patriarch himself, but would not give up on their own. The most zealous ones suggested luring the bishop to the parish and turning his car upside down, and not turning it back until Father Fyodor was returned. But the bishop had already cooled down and decided not to start a scandal. And he returned Fyodor’s father to the Buzikha people.

Five years have passed since then. And now Slava held the telegram, wondering what could have happened in Buzikhino.

And this is what happened in Buzikhino. Father Fyodor always woke up early and never stayed in bed, washed himself and read the rule. This is how his every day began. But this morning, opening his eyes, he lay in bed for almost half an hour with a blissful smile: at night he saw his late mother. Father Fyodor rarely saw dreams, but here he was so unusual, so light and bright.

Father Fyodor himself in the dream was just a boy Fedya, galloping on a horse through their native village, and his mother came out of the house to meet him and shouted: “Fedya, give the horse a rest, tomorrow you and your father will go to the fair.” At these words, Father Fyodor woke up, but his heart continued to beat joyfully, and he smiled dreamily, remembering his childhood. He considered seeing his mother in a dream a good sign, which means that her soul is calm, because in church prayers for her repose are constantly offered up for her.

Glancing at the wall clock, he got out of bed, groaning, and wandered to the washbasin. After prayer, as usual, he went to drink tea in the kitchen, and after drinking, he settled down to read the newspapers that had just been brought. The door opened slightly and the curly head of Petka, the grandson of the church bell ringer Paramon, appeared.

- Father Fyodor, I brought you some fresh crucian carp, I just caught it.

“Come on in, show me your catch,” Father Fyodor said good-naturedly.

Petya’s arrival was always a joyful event for Fyodor’s father; he loved this little boy, who somehow reminded him of his late son. “Oh, if he had passed by, he would not have orphaned his father, now I would probably have grandchildren. But that means it’s God’s will,” Father Fyodor thought painfully.

He didn’t leave Petka without a gift, either he would fill his pockets full of sweets or gingerbread. But, of course, he understood that Petya was not coming to him for this, and he was too curious, asking Father Fyodor about everything, and sometimes asking such tricky questions that you couldn’t answer right away.

“Little crucian carp,” Petya justified himself, embarrassedly holding out a plastic bag with a dozen small, palm-sized crucian carp.

“Every gift is good,” Father Fyodor boomed, putting the crucian carp in the refrigerator. “And the most important thing is that he brought a gift from the labor of his hands.” And I have this in store for you. – And with these words he handed Petka a large chocolate bar.

Thanking him, Petya turned the chocolate over in his hand and tried to put it in his pocket, but the chocolate wouldn’t fit, and then he quickly put it in his bosom.

- Eh, brother, it won’t work like that, your belly is hot, the chocolate will melt - and you won’t be able to bring it home, it’s better to wrap it in a newspaper. Now, if you’re not in a hurry, sit down and let’s have some tea.

- Thank you, father, my mother milked the cow, so I’ve already drunk some milk.

- Sit down anyway, tell me something.

– Father Fyodor, my grandfather tells me that when I grow up, I will receive a recommendation from you and enter the seminary, and then I will become a priest, like you.

- Yes, you will be even better than me. I’m illiterate, I didn’t study in seminaries, those were the wrong years, and there were no seminaries then.

“You say “illiterate,” but how do you know everything?

– I read the Bible, there are some other books. I know a little.

– And dad says that there is nothing to do in the seminary, since the Church will soon die out, and it is better to go to the agricultural institute and become an agronomist, like him.

“Well, your dad said,” Father Fyodor grinned. “I will die, your father will die, you will die someday, but the Church will stand forever, until the end of time.”

“I think so too,” Petya agreed. “Our church has been standing for so many years, and nothing is happening to it, and the club seems to have been recently built, and there’s already a crack running down the wall.” Grandfather says that they used to build firmly and mix the mortar with eggs.

– It’s not about the eggs here, brother. When I said that the Church will stand forever, I did not mean our temple, this is the work of human hands, and it may collapse. And in my lifetime, how many churches and monasteries have been blown up and destroyed, but the Church lives on. The Church is all of us who believe in Christ, and He is the head of our Church. So, even though your father is considered literate in the village, his speeches are unwise.

- How to become wise? How much do you need to study, more than your father, or what? – Petya was puzzled.

- How can I tell you... I met people who were completely illiterate, but wise. “The beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord” - this is what it says in the Holy Scriptures.

Petya narrowed his eyes slyly:

– Last time you said that you need to love God. How can you both love and fear it at the same time?

- Do you love your mother?

- Certainly.

-Are you afraid of her?

- No, she doesn’t hit me like my father.

“Are you afraid to do something that would make your mother very upset?”

“I’m afraid,” Petya laughed.

- Well, then, then, I must understand what kind of “fear of the Lord” this is.

Their conversation was interrupted by a knock on the door. The mother-in-law of the collective farm party organizer, Ksenia Stepanovna, entered. She crossed herself into the icon and approached Father Fyodor for a blessing.

- I have a conversation, father, alone with you. – And cast a sidelong glance at Petka.

He, realizing that his presence was undesirable, said goodbye and dashed through the door.

“So, father,” Semyonovna began in a conspiratorial voice, “you know that my Klavka gave birth to a little boy, she’s been unbaptized for two months.” My heart ached all over: even the unmarried people themselves, one might say, live in fornication, so at least baptize your granddaughter, otherwise God forbid it gets into trouble.

- Well, why don’t you baptize? - asked Father Fyodor, understanding perfectly well why they did not carry the party organizer’s son to church.

- What are you, father, God be with you, is this really possible? What a position he has! Yes, he himself doesn’t mind. Just now he said to me: “Baptize your son, mother, so that no one can see.”

“Well, it’s a good thing, since it’s necessary, we’ll baptize in a secret way.” When was the christening scheduled?

“Come on, father, come to us now, everything is ready.” The son-in-law left for work, and his brother, who came from the city, will be godfather. Otherwise, he will leave - how can he go without his godfather?

“Yes,” Father Fyodor drawled meaningfully, “there are no christenings without godfathers.”

- And there is a godfather, my niece, Froska’s daughter. Well, I’ll go, father, I’ll get everything ready, and you follow through the backyards, through the vegetable gardens.

- Don’t teach me, I know...

Semyonovna left, and Father Fyodor began to leisurely get ready. First of all, I checked the baptismal supplies, looked at the light of the bottle with the holy world, it was already almost at the bottom. “That’s enough for now, and I’ll add more tomorrow.” I put it all in a small suitcase, put the Gospel, and vestments on top of everything. He put on his old duckweed and, coming out, headed through the potato gardens along the path to the party organizer’s house.

In the spacious, bright room there was already a basin of water, and three candles were attached to it. The brother of the party organizer came in.

“Vasily,” he introduced himself, extending his hand to Father Fyodor.

– Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov, rector of St. Nicholas Church in the village of Buzikhino.

Vasily was embarrassed by such a long title and, blinking in confusion, asked:

- How do you call them by your patronymic?

“You don’t need to use your patronymic, just call him Father Fedor or Father,” Father Fedor answered, pleased with the effect produced.

- Father Fyodor-father, you tell me what to do. I have never participated in this ritual.

“Not a ritual, but a Sacrament,” Father Fyodor impressively corrected the completely confused Vasily. “And you don’t have to do anything, stand here and hold your godson.”

The godfather, fourteen-year-old Anyutka, came into the room with a baby in her arms. The party organizer's wife looked into the room with restless curiosity.

“But mother is not supposed to be at the christening,” Father Fyodor said sternly.

“Go, go, daughter,” Semyonovna waved her hands at her. - Then we’ll call you.

Father Fyodor slowly performed baptism, then called the boy’s mother and, after a short sermon about the benefits of raising children in the Christian faith, blessed the mother, reading a prayer over her.

“And now, father, we ask you to come to the table, we must celebrate the christening and drink to the health of my grandson,” Semyonovna began to fuss.

In a kitchen as spacious as an upper room, a table was laid on which there were countless pickles: pickled cucumbers, tomatoes, pickled white cabbage, salted milk mushrooms with sour cream and fatty herring, cut into large slices, sprinkled with onion rings and drizzled with butter. In the middle of the table was a liter bottle of liquid, clear as glass. Nearby, boiled potatoes sprinkled with green onions were steaming in a large bowl. There was something to make my eyes run wild. Father Fedor looked at the bottle with respect.

Semyonovna, catching Father Fyodor’s gaze, hastily explained:

“Pure first-class, she kicked it out herself, transparent, like a tear.” Well, Vasya, invite the priest to the table.

“Well, father, sit down, according to Russian custom - a little for the godson,” said Vasily, contentedly rubbing his hands.

“According to Russian custom, you must first pray and bless the meal, and only then sit down,” Father Fyodor said edifyingly and, turning to the front corner, wanted to enlighten himself sign of the cross, however, the hand raised to the forehead froze, since only a portrait of Lenin hung in the corner.

Semyonovna started wailing, rushed behind the stove, took out the icon, and, taking down the portrait, hung it on a loose nail.

“You will forgive us, father, they are young, all party members.”

Father Fyodor read the “Our Father” and blessed the table with a wide cross:

- Christ God, bless the food and drink of Your servant, for You are holy always, now and ever and unto ages of ages, Amen.

He somehow singled out the word “drinking”, placing emphasis on it. Then they sat down, and Vasily immediately poured moonshine into glasses. The first toast was proclaimed to the newly baptized baby. Father Fyodor, having drunk, smoothed his mustache and prophesied:

“The pervach is good, strong,” and began to snack on sauerkraut.

“Can you really compare it to vodka, it’s such disgusting stuff, they use chemistry, but here they have their own purity,” assented Vasily. “Only here, when you come home from the city, you can have a normal rest and relaxation.” No wonder Vysotsky sings: “And if vodka wasn’t distilled from sawdust, then what would we get from three, four, five bottles?!” - And he laughed. “And as I rightly noted, after vodka I get a headache, but after the first drink, even if you take henna, you’ll get a hangover in the morning and you can drink again all day.”

Father Fyodor silently paid tribute to the snacks, only occasionally nodding his head in agreement.

We drank a second drink to the parents of the baptized baby. Both of their eyes sparkled, and while Father Fyodor, having thickly smeared the jellied meat with mustard, was eating the second glass, Vasily, having stopped eating, lit a cigarette and continued ranting:

“Before, people were at least afraid of God, but now,” he waved his hand in annoyance, “now they’re not afraid of anyone, everyone does what they want.”

- How do you know how it used to be? – Father Fyodor grinned, looking at his drunken godfather.

“That’s what old people say, they won’t lie.” No, we abolished religion early, it still came in handy. After all, what do they teach in church: do not kill, do not steal... - Vasily began to bend his fingers. But with these two commandments his stock of knowledge about religion ended, and he, grabbing his third finger, began painfully remembering something else, repeating again: “Thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal...”

“Honor your father and mother,” Father Fedor came to his rescue.

- Well, that’s what I wanted to say, honor. Do they really honor it? My dunce went to the eighth grade, and there... You see, his father is not his father, his mother is not his mother. All sorts of punks are hanging around the entrances, you can’t drive them home, you’ve completely neglected the school. - And Vasily, helplessly slapping his hands on his knees, began pouring them into glasses. “Well, all of them, father,” and, clutching his mouth with his hand, said in fear: “I almost swore in front of you, but I know: it’s a sin... in front of the priest... Semyonovna warned me.” Forgive me, Father Fyodor, we are simple people, in our work things don’t work without swearing, but with swearing - everything is so clear. Is it a sin, father, to swear at work? So answer me.

“Naturally, it’s a sin,” said Father Fyodor, eating a shot glass with his small spoon.

- But business doesn’t work without him! How to judge if things don't work out? “Hiccupping loudly, Vasily threw up his hands in bewilderment. “And when you swear well,” he slashed the air with his hand, “it’s so bad—and that’s all, such pies.” And you say “sin”.

- What should I say, that this is a godly deed, swearing? – Father Fyodor was perplexed.

- Eh, but you won’t understand me, I just want to swear, then you would understand.

“Well, curse if you want,” agreed Father Fyodor.

“You’re pushing me to commit a crime so that I can swear in front of the Holy Father... No way!”

Father Fyodor saw that his dinner companion had become rather stubborn, drinking without a snack, and began to get ready to go home. Vasily, completely exhausted, dropped his head on the table, muttering:

- For me to swear, but don’t f... you won’t expect me to, I’m all in...

At this time Semyonovna came in:

- Uh, he got drunk like a beast, he doesn’t even know how to drink properly. Forgive us, father.

- Come on, Semyonovna, it’s not worth it.

- Now, father, Anyutka will see you out. I gave you some fresh eggs, milk, sour cream and something else. Anyutka will demolish it.

Father Fedor blessed Semyonovna and went home. He was in a great mood, his head was a little noisy from the drink, but with such a good snack, this was nothing for him.

A lame Maria was sitting on a bench in front of his house.

“Oh, father, thank God, thank God, I waited,” Maria hobbled under the blessing of Father Fyodor. “But no one knows where you went, I thought you went to the region, that would have been a disaster.”

- For what reason, my dear? – Father Fyodor asked, blessing.

- Oh, father, oh, dear, Dunka Krivosheina is in grief, some kind of grief. Her son Pasha, you know him, last summer he brought firewood to the church on a tractor. Well, the day before yesterday Agrippina, who lives along the road, was plowing her garden. Then, of course, she paid them, as expected, with moonshine. So they, the devils, drank the whole bottle and drove off. The Kirovets that Pashka was working on turned over, you know how high the roadsides are. Last year, remember, Semyon turned over, but he remained alive. And our dear Pasha fell out of the window and was crushed by a tractor. Oh, woe, woe to Eva Dunka’s mother, she was left completely without a breadwinner, she buried her husband, now she has a son. Well, our dear father, we ask by Christ God, let’s go, serve a memorial service over the coffin, and tomorrow they will take us to church for the funeral service. My grandson will take you now.

“Okay, let’s go, let’s go,” Father Fyodor fussed. “I’ll just take the incense and censer.”

- Take, father, take, dear, everything you need, and I’ll wait here, behind the gate.

Father Fyodor quickly got ready and left ten minutes later. Maria’s grandson was waiting for him at the gate on a Ural motorcycle. Maria sat behind him, leaving space in the stroller for Father Fyodor. Father Fyodor picked up his cassock and plopped down in the stroller:

- Well, with God, let's go.

The engine roared and carried Father Fyodor towards his fateful hour. People were crowding around Evdokia Krivosheina’s house. The house is small, low, Father Fyodor, passing through the door, did not bend down in time and hit the upper door frame hard; wincing in pain, he muttered:

- What kind of people do they make such low doors, I just can’t get used to it.

Men were crowding in the depths of the hallway.

“Father Fyodor, come to us,” they called.

Approaching, Father Fyodor saw a small table, laden with glasses and a simple snack.

“Father, let’s remember Pashkin’s soul, so that he may rest in peace.”

Father Fyodor gave Maria a censer with coal and told her to go light it. He took a glass of cloudy liquid with his left hand and crossed himself widely with his right:

“The Kingdom of Heaven to the servant of God Paul,” and he drained the glass in one breath.

“Not the same as the party organizer had,” he thought. Father Fyodor refused the second pile, immediately offered to him, and went into the house.

The upper room was crowded with people. There was a coffin in the middle of the room. The face of a dead man, still young guy, for some reason it turned black, almost like a black man’s. But he looked significant: a dark suit, a white shirt, a black tie, as if he was not a tractor driver, but some kind of state farm director. True, the hands folded on the chest were the hands of a worker; the fuel oil was so ingrained in them that there was no longer any way to wash them off.

Pavel’s mother was sitting on a stool right next to the coffin. She looked tenderly and sorrowfully at her son and whispered something to herself. In the stuffy upper room, Father Fyodor felt the hops taking over him more and more. In the corner, near the door and in the front corner, behind the coffin, there were paper wreaths. Father Fyodor began the funeral service, and the grandmothers sang along with him in thin voices. Somehow awkwardly swinging the censer, he touched the edge of the coffin with it. A coal that flew out of the censer rolled under a pile of wreaths, but no one noticed it.

Only Father Fedor began the funeral litany when terrible screams were heard:

- We're burning, we're burning!

He turned around and saw how brightly the paper wreaths were blazing. The flames spread to others. Everyone rushed through the narrow doors, where a crush immediately formed. Father Fyodor took off his vestments and began to restore order, pushing people through the doors. “That seems to be it,” flashed through his head. “We have to run out, otherwise it will be too late.” He took one last look at the dead man lying calmly in the coffin, and then he saw the hunched figure of Paul’s mother, Evdokia, behind the coffin. He rushed to her, picked her up, wanted to carry her to the door, but it was too late, the whole door was engulfed in flames. Father Fyodor ran to the window and kicked the frame, then, dragging Evdokia, who was no longer thinking anything from horror, literally pushed her out of the window.

Then he tried it himself, but realized that his heavy body would not fit through such a small window. It became unbearably hot, my head was spinning; Falling to the floor, Father Fyodor glanced at the corner with the images - the Savior was on fire. I wanted to cross myself, but my hand did not obey, did not rise to make the sign of the cross. Before completely losing consciousness, he whispered:

- In Your hands, Lord Jesus Christ, I commend my spirit, be merciful to me, a sinner.

The icon of the Savior began to warp from the fire, but the compassionate gaze of Christ continued to look kindly at Father Fyodor. Father Fyodor saw that the Savior was suffering with him.

“Lord,” Father Fyodor whispered, “how good it is to always be with You.”

Everything darkened, and from this fading darkness a light of extraordinary softness began to flare up; everything that was before seemed to step aside and disappeared. Next to him, Father Fyodor heard a gentle voice that was very close to him:

“Truly I tell you, today you will be with Me in Paradise.”

Two days later, the dean, Father Leonid Zvyakin, arrived and, calling two priests from neighboring parishes, led the funeral service for Father Fedor. During the funeral service, the church was filled to capacity with people, so much so that some had to stand in the street. They carried the coffin around the church and carried it to the cemetery. Behind the coffin, next to the bell ringer Paramon, was his grandson Petya. His look was full of bewilderment; he couldn’t believe that Father Fyodor was no more, that he was burying him. In Buzikhino, all agricultural work was suspended on the day of the funeral. Stepping aside a little, the chairman and party organizer of the collective farm walked with their fellow villagers. The mournful faces of the Buzikha residents expressed lonely confusion. They buried a shepherd, who over the years had become a dear and close friend to all his fellow villagers. They came to him with all their troubles and needs, the doors of Father Fyodor’s house were always open for them. Who will they come to now? Who will console them and give them good advice?

“We didn’t save our breadwinner father,” the old women lamented, and the young boys and girls nodded their heads in agreement: we didn’t save him.

In the priest's house for the funeral, tables were set only for the clergy and the church council. For everyone else, tables were placed outside in the church fence, fortunately the weather was good and sunny.

There were flasks with moonshine right next to the tables, the men came up and scooped up as much as they wanted. Near one table stood Vasily, the brother of the party organizer, already pretty tipsy, and explained the difference between moonshine and vodka.

Nikolay Agafonov.

True stories (collection)

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Preface

The miraculous is always with us, but we do not notice it. It tries to speak to us, but we do not hear it, because we are deaf from the roar of a godless civilization. It walks next to us, breathing right down our necks. But we do not feel it, because our feelings have been dulled by the countless temptations of this age. It runs ahead and looks straight into our eyes, but we don’t see it. We are blinded by our false greatness - the greatness of a man who can move mountains without any faith, only with the help of soulless technical progress. And if we suddenly see or hear, we hasten to pass by, pretend that we didn’t notice or hear. After all, in the secret place of our being, we guess that, having accepted MIRACLE as the reality of our life, we will have to change our life. We must become restless in this world and holy fools for the rational ones of this world. And this is already scary or, on the contrary, so funny that you want to cry.

Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov

Killed while on duty
Non-criminal history

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

In. 15:13

And when he’s finished with everyone, then he’ll say to us: “Come out,” he’ll say, “you too!” Come out drunk, come out weak, come out drunk!” And we will all go out without shame and stand. And he will say: “You pigs! The image of the beast and its seal; but come too!” And the wise will say, the wise will say: “Lord! Why do you accept these people?” And he will say: “That is why I accept them, the wise, because I accept them, the wise, because not one of these himself considered himself worthy of this...”

F. M. Dostoevsky.

Crime and Punishment


It was already ten o'clock in the evening when a sharp bell rang in the diocesan administration. Stepan Semyonovich, the night watchman, who had just laid down to rest, grumbled dissatisfiedly: “Who is this difficult one to wear?”, shuffling with worn-out house slippers, he trudged to the door. Without even asking who was calling, he shouted irritably, stopping in front of the door:

- There is no one here, come tomorrow morning!

– Urgent telegram, please accept and sign.

Having received the telegram, the watchman brought it to his closet, turned on the table lamp and, putting on his glasses, began to read: “On July 27, 1979, Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov died tragically in the line of duty, we are waiting for further instructions.

Church Council of St. Nicholas Church of the village of Buzikhino.”

“The Kingdom of Heaven to God’s servant Father Fyodor,” Stepan Semyonovich said sympathetically and re-read the telegram out loud again. The wording was confusing: “He died in the line of duty...” This didn’t fit at all with the priestly rank.

“Well, there’s a policeman or a fireman, or at least a watchman, of course, God forbid, that’s understandable, but Father Fyodor?” – Stepan Semenovich shrugged his shoulders in bewilderment.

He knew Father Fyodor well when he still served in the cathedral. Father differed from other clergy of the cathedral in his simplicity of communication and responsive heart, for which he was loved by the parishioners. Ten years ago, Fyodor’s father experienced great grief in his family - his only son Sergei was killed. This happened when Sergei was rushing home to please his parents with passing the exam for medical school, although Father Fedor dreamed that his son would study at the seminary.

“But since he chose the path not of a spiritual, but of a physical doctor, all the same - God grant him happiness... He will treat me in my old age,” Father Fyodor said to Stepan Semenovich when they were sitting over tea in the cathedral gatehouse. It was then that this terrible news caught them.

On the way from the institute, Sergei saw four guys beating a fifth guy right next to the bus stop. The women at the bus stop tried to reason with the hooligans by shouting, but they, not paying attention, kicked the already lying man. The men standing at the bus stop turned away in shame. Sergei, without hesitation, rushed to the rescue. The investigation found out who stabbed him with a knife only a month later. What good would it do, no one could return his son to Father Fyodor.

For forty days after the death of his son, Father Fedor served funeral masses and memorial services every day. And as forty days passed, they often began to notice Father Fyodor drunk. It happened that he came to the service drunk. But they tried not to reproach him, understanding his condition, they sympathized with him. However, this soon became increasingly difficult to do. The bishop several times transferred Father Fyodor to the position of psalm-reader to correct him from drinking wine. But one incident forced the bishop to take extreme measures and dismiss Father Fedor as a staff member.

Once, having received a month’s salary, Father Fyodor went into a glass shop, which was located not far from the cathedral. The regulars of this establishment treated the priest with respect, for out of his kindness he treated them at his own expense. That day was the anniversary of his son’s death, and Father Fyodor, throwing his entire salary on the counter, ordered everyone who wanted to be treated to food throughout the evening. The storm of delight that arose in the tavern resulted in a solemn procession at the end of the drinking session. A stretcher was brought from a nearby construction site, Father Fyodor was hoisted onto it and, declaring him the Great Pope of the Rumochnaya, they carried him home across the entire block. After this incident, Father Fedor ended up in exile. He was without ministry for two years before he was appointed to the Buzikha parish.

Stepan Semyonovich re-read the telegram for the third time and, sighing, began to dial the bishop’s home telephone number. Bishop Slava’s cell attendant answered the phone.

“His Eminence is busy, read the telegram to me, I’ll write it down and then pass it on.”

The contents of the telegram puzzled Slava no less than the watchman. He began to think: “To die tragically in our time is a couple of trifles, which happens quite often. For example, last year a protodeacon and his wife died in a car accident. But what do job responsibilities have to do with it? What might happen during a worship service? Probably these Buzikha people got something mixed up.”

Slava was from those places and knew the village of Buzikhino well. It was famous for the obstinate character of the villagers. The bishop also had to deal with the unbridled temper of the Buzikha people. The Buzikha parish gave him more trouble than all the other parishes in the diocese combined. No matter what priest the bishop appointed to them, he did not stay there long. It lasts a year, or at most another, and complaints, letters, and threats begin. No one could please the Buzikha people. In one year, three abbots had to be replaced. The bishop got angry and didn’t appoint anyone to them for two months. For these two months, the Buzikhinites, like non-popovites, themselves read and sang in church. Only this was of little consolation; you couldn’t serve mass without a priest, so they began to ask for a priest. The bishop tells them:

“I don’t have a priest for you, no one wants to come to your parish anymore!”

But they don’t back down, they ask, they plead:

- At least someone, at least for a while, otherwise Easter is approaching! What is it like on such a great holiday without a priest? Sin.

The bishop had mercy on them, summoned Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov, who was on staff at that time, and said to him:

“I’m giving you, Father Fyodor, one last chance to reform, I’m appointing you as rector in Buzikhino, if you stay there for three years, I’ll forgive everything.”

Father Fyodor bowed at the bishop's feet with joy and, swearing that he had not taken a single gram in his mouth for a month, he went contentedly to his destination.

A month passes, then another, a year. No one sends complaints to the bishop. This pleases His Eminence, but at the same time worries him: it is strange that there are no complaints. He sends Dean Father Leonid Zvyakin to find out how things are going. Father Leonid went and reports:

“Everything is fine, the parishioners are happy, the church council is happy, Father Fyodor is also happy.”

The bishop marveled at such a miracle, and with him all the diocesan workers, but they began to wait: it could not be that it would last a second year.

But another year passed, the third began. The bishop could not stand it, calls Father Fyodor and asks:

“Tell me, Father Fyodor, how did you manage to find a common language with the Buzikha people?”

“But it wasn’t difficult,” answers Father Fyodor. “As soon as I came to them, I immediately recognized their main weakness and played on it.

- How is this possible? – the bishop was surprised.

“And I understood, Vladyka, that the Buzikha people are an extremely proud people, they don’t like to be taught, so I told them at the first sermon: so, they say, and so, brothers and sisters, do you know for what purpose I came to did the bishop appoint you? They immediately became wary: “For what purpose?” - “And with such a goal, my beloved, that you guide me on the true path.” Here their mouths were completely open in surprise, and I continued to wallow: “I didn’t finish any seminaries, but from childhood I sang and read in the choir, and therefore I became a priest as if semi-literate. And due to lack of education, he began to drink excessively, for which he was dismissed from regular service.” Here they nodded their heads sympathetically. “And, left,” I say, “without means of food, I eked out a miserable existence outside the state. To top it all off, my wife left me, not wanting to share my fate with me.” As I said this, tears welled up in my eyes. I look, and the parishioners’ eyes are wet. “I would have been lost,” I continue, “but our bishop, God bless him, with his bright mind realized that for my own salvation it is necessary to appoint me to your parish, and says to me: “No one, Father Fedor, you in the entire diocese he cannot help, except for the Buzikha people, for in this village live a wise, kind and pious people. They will guide you on the right path." Therefore, I ask and pray you, dear brothers and sisters, do not leave me with your wise advice, support me, and point out where I am wrong. For from now on I entrust my destiny into your hands.” Since then we have lived in peace and harmony.

This story, however, made a depressing impression on the bishop.

- What is it, Father Fedor? How dare you attribute to me words that I did not utter? I sent you as a shepherd, and you came to the parish as a lost sheep. It turns out that you don’t shepherd the flock, but she shepherds you?

“But for me,” Father Fyodor answers, “it doesn’t matter who shepherds whom, as long as there is peace and everyone is happy.”

This answer completely infuriated the bishop, and he sent Father Fyodor out of office.

The Buzikha people did not accept the newly sent priest at all and threatened that if Father Fyodor was not returned to them, they would go all the way to the patriarch himself, but would not give up on their own. The most zealous ones suggested luring the bishop to the parish and turning his car upside down, and not turning it back until Father Fyodor was returned. But the bishop had already cooled down and decided not to start a scandal. And he returned Fyodor’s father to the Buzikha people.

Five years have passed since then. And now Slava held the telegram, wondering what could have happened in Buzikhino.

And this is what happened in Buzikhino. Father Fyodor always woke up early and never stayed in bed, washed himself and read the rule. This is how his every day began. But this morning, opening his eyes, he lay in bed for almost half an hour with a blissful smile: at night he saw his late mother. Father Fyodor rarely saw dreams, but here he was so unusual, so light and bright.

Father Fyodor himself in the dream was just a boy Fedya, galloping on a horse through their native village, and his mother came out of the house to meet him and shouted: “Fedya, give the horse a rest, tomorrow you and your father will go to the fair.” At these words, Father Fyodor woke up, but his heart continued to beat joyfully, and he smiled dreamily, remembering his childhood. He considered seeing his mother in a dream a good sign, which means that her soul is calm, because in church prayers for her repose are constantly offered up for her.

Glancing at the wall clock, he got out of bed, groaning, and wandered to the washbasin. After prayer, as usual, he went to drink tea in the kitchen, and after drinking, he settled down to read the newspapers that had just been brought. The door opened slightly and the curly head of Petka, the grandson of the church bell ringer Paramon, appeared.

- Father Fyodor, I brought you some fresh crucian carp, I just caught it.

“Come on in, show me your catch,” Father Fyodor said good-naturedly.

Petya’s arrival was always a joyful event for Fyodor’s father; he loved this little boy, who somehow reminded him of his late son. “Oh, if he had passed by, he would not have orphaned his father, now I would probably have grandchildren. But that means it’s God’s will,” Father Fyodor thought painfully.

He didn’t leave Petka without a gift, either he would fill his pockets full of sweets or gingerbread. But, of course, he understood that Petya was not coming to him for this, and he was too curious, asking Father Fyodor about everything, and sometimes asking such tricky questions that you couldn’t answer right away.

“Little crucian carp,” Petya justified himself, embarrassedly holding out a plastic bag with a dozen small, palm-sized crucian carp.

“Every gift is good,” Father Fyodor boomed, putting the crucian carp in the refrigerator. “And the most important thing is that he brought a gift from the labor of his hands.” And I have this in store for you. – And with these words he handed Petka a large chocolate bar.

Thanking him, Petya turned the chocolate over in his hand and tried to put it in his pocket, but the chocolate wouldn’t fit, and then he quickly put it in his bosom.

- Eh, brother, it won’t work like that, your belly is hot, the chocolate will melt - and you won’t be able to bring it home, it’s better to wrap it in a newspaper. Now, if you’re not in a hurry, sit down and let’s have some tea.

- Thank you, father, my mother milked the cow, so I’ve already drunk some milk.

- Sit down anyway, tell me something.

– Father Fyodor, my grandfather tells me that when I grow up, I will receive a recommendation from you and enter the seminary, and then I will become a priest, like you.

- Yes, you will be even better than me. I’m illiterate, I didn’t study in seminaries, those were the wrong years, and there were no seminaries then.

“You say “illiterate,” but how do you know everything?

– I read the Bible, there are some other books. I know a little.

– And dad says that there is nothing to do in the seminary, since the Church will soon die out, and it is better to go to the agricultural institute and become an agronomist, like him.

“Well, your dad said,” Father Fyodor grinned. “I will die, your father will die, you will die someday, but the Church will stand forever, until the end of time.”

“I think so too,” Petya agreed. “Our church has been standing for so many years, and nothing is happening to it, and the club seems to have been recently built, and there’s already a crack running down the wall.” Grandfather says that they used to build firmly and mix the mortar with eggs.

– It’s not about the eggs here, brother. When I said that the Church will stand forever, I did not mean our temple, this is the work of human hands, and it may collapse. And in my lifetime, how many churches and monasteries have been blown up and destroyed, but the Church lives on. The Church is all of us who believe in Christ, and He is the head of our Church. So, even though your father is considered literate in the village, his speeches are unwise.

- How to become wise? How much do you need to study, more than your father, or what? – Petya was puzzled.

- How can I tell you... I met people who were completely illiterate, but wise. “The beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord” - this is what it says in the Holy Scriptures.

Petya narrowed his eyes slyly:

– Last time you said that you need to love God. How can you both love and fear it at the same time?

- Do you love your mother?

- Certainly.

-Are you afraid of her?

- No, she doesn’t hit me like my father.

“Are you afraid to do something that would make your mother very upset?”

“I’m afraid,” Petya laughed.

- Well, then, then, I must understand what kind of “fear of the Lord” this is.

Their conversation was interrupted by a knock on the door. The mother-in-law of the collective farm party organizer, Ksenia Stepanovna, entered. She crossed herself into the icon and approached Father Fyodor for a blessing.

- I have a conversation, father, alone with you. – And cast a sidelong glance at Petka.

He, realizing that his presence was undesirable, said goodbye and dashed through the door.

“So, father,” Semyonovna began in a conspiratorial voice, “you know that my Klavka gave birth to a little boy, she’s been unbaptized for two months.” My heart ached all over: even the unmarried people themselves, one might say, live in fornication, so at least baptize your granddaughter, otherwise God forbid it gets into trouble.

- Well, why don’t you baptize? - asked Father Fyodor, understanding perfectly well why they did not carry the party organizer’s son to church.

- What are you, father, God be with you, is this really possible? What a position he has! Yes, he himself doesn’t mind. Just now he said to me: “Baptize your son, mother, so that no one can see.”

“Well, it’s a good thing, since it’s necessary, we’ll baptize in a secret way.” When was the christening scheduled?

“Come on, father, come to us now, everything is ready.” The son-in-law left for work, and his brother, who came from the city, will be godfather. Otherwise, he will leave - how can he go without his godfather?

“Yes,” Father Fyodor drawled meaningfully, “there are no christenings without godfathers.”

- And there is a godfather, my niece, Froska’s daughter. Well, I’ll go, father, I’ll get everything ready, and you follow through the backyards, through the vegetable gardens.

- Don’t teach me, I know...

Semyonovna left, and Father Fyodor began to leisurely get ready. First of all, I checked the baptismal supplies, looked at the light of the bottle with the holy world, it was already almost at the bottom. “That’s enough for now, and I’ll add more tomorrow.” I put it all in a small suitcase, put the Gospel, and vestments on top of everything. He put on his old duckweed and, coming out, headed through the potato gardens along the path to the party organizer’s house.

In the spacious, bright room there was already a basin of water, and three candles were attached to it. The brother of the party organizer came in.

“Vasily,” he introduced himself, extending his hand to Father Fyodor.

– Archpriest Fyodor Mirolyubov, rector of St. Nicholas Church in the village of Buzikhino.

Vasily was embarrassed by such a long title and, blinking in confusion, asked:

- How do you call them by your patronymic?

“You don’t need to use your patronymic, just call him Father Fedor or Father,” Father Fedor answered, pleased with the effect produced.

- Father Fyodor-father, you tell me what to do. I have never participated in this ritual.

“Not a ritual, but a Sacrament,” Father Fyodor impressively corrected the completely confused Vasily. “And you don’t have to do anything, stand here and hold your godson.”

The godfather, fourteen-year-old Anyutka, came into the room with a baby in her arms. The party organizer's wife looked into the room with restless curiosity.

“But mother is not supposed to be at the christening,” Father Fyodor said sternly.

“Go, go, daughter,” Semyonovna waved her hands at her. - Then we’ll call you.

Father Fyodor slowly performed baptism, then called the boy’s mother and, after a short sermon about the benefits of raising children in the Christian faith, blessed the mother, reading a prayer over her.

“And now, father, we ask you to come to the table, we must celebrate the christening and drink to the health of my grandson,” Semyonovna began to fuss.

In a kitchen as spacious as an upper room, a table was laid on which there were countless pickles: pickled cucumbers, tomatoes, pickled white cabbage, salted milk mushrooms with sour cream and fatty herring, cut into large slices, sprinkled with onion rings and drizzled with butter. In the middle of the table was a liter bottle of liquid, clear as glass. Nearby, boiled potatoes sprinkled with green onions were steaming in a large bowl. There was something to make my eyes run wild. Father Fedor looked at the bottle with respect.

Semyonovna, catching Father Fyodor’s gaze, hastily explained:

“Pure first-class, she kicked it out herself, transparent, like a tear.” Well, Vasya, invite the priest to the table.

“Well, father, sit down, according to Russian custom - a little for the godson,” said Vasily, contentedly rubbing his hands.

“According to Russian custom, you must first pray and bless the meal, and only then sit down,” Father Fyodor said edifyingly and, turning to the front corner, wanted to make the sign of the cross, but the hand raised to his forehead froze, since only a portrait hung in the corner Lenin.

Semyonovna started wailing, rushed behind the stove, took out the icon, and, taking down the portrait, hung it on a loose nail.

“You will forgive us, father, they are young, all party members.”

Father Fyodor read the “Our Father” and blessed the table with a wide cross:

- Christ God, bless the food and drink of Your servant, for You are holy always, now and ever and unto ages of ages, Amen.

He somehow singled out the word “drinking”, placing emphasis on it. Then they sat down, and Vasily immediately poured moonshine into glasses. The first toast was proclaimed to the newly baptized baby. Father Fyodor, having drunk, smoothed his mustache and prophesied:

“The pervach is good, strong,” and began to snack on sauerkraut.

“Can you really compare it to vodka, it’s such disgusting stuff, they use chemistry, but here they have their own purity,” assented Vasily. “Only here, when you come home from the city, you can have a normal rest and relaxation.” No wonder Vysotsky sings: “And if vodka wasn’t distilled from sawdust, then what would we get from three, four, five bottles?!” - And he laughed. “And as I rightly noted, after vodka I get a headache, but after the first drink, even if you take henna, you’ll get a hangover in the morning and you can drink again all day.”

Father Fyodor silently paid tribute to the snacks, only occasionally nodding his head in agreement.

Archpriest Nikolai (Agafonov)- an outstanding Orthodox writer, priest of the Russian Orthodox Church, missionary, preacher. Rector of the Church of the Holy Myrrh-Bearing Women in Samara. Member of the Union of Writers of Russia.

Father was born in 1955 in the tiny village of Usva Perm region. Then the family moved to the Volga, where he spent his childhood. He finished school in Tolyatti, then served in the army. In 1976 he was enrolled in the Moscow Theological Seminary. A year later he was ordained a deacon, and in 1979 a presbyter. The priest serves in small rural churches, then he is assigned to Volgograd. In 1992 he graduated from the Leningrad Theological Academy. By decree of the Holy Synod, priest Nikolai Agafonov was appointed to the responsible position of rector of the newly created Saratov Theological Seminary. In 1997, he moved to Volgograd, where he took the post of rector of the church in honor of the Great Martyr Paraskeva, and also became the head of the Volgograd diocese. Under his direct supervision, two missionary churches were built afloat. For this, Patriarch Alexy II will honor Father Nicholas with the Order of St. Innocent, III degree.

In 2002, the first two stories by Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov were published. This is how his literary journey began. Today he has written such well-known collections of stories as “Uninvented Stories”, “The Light of the Golden Moon”, “Overcoming Gravity”, “A Very Important Deed”, “The Restless Foolishness of Simple Stories”, etc. He is the author of the wonderful historical novel “Myrrh-Bearing Wives” ", dedicated to the great and modest feat of quiet, unnoticed women who followed Christ. They are for each of us an example of worthy service to God and people. In the preface to the book, the author himself writes that it is difficult to overestimate the feat of the myrrh-bearing women. They have always been an example for Christians. And also for Russian women, who in the hard years of the beginning of the 20th century, when priests were killed, churches were burned, preserved the faith and saved many shrines from desecration. Perhaps it is thanks to such modest Russian women that faith in our country has not faded away. Father also wrote an outstanding novel “”. The author managed to create a living image of the great enlightener, unique poet, writer of the 8th century - St. John of Damascus. The novel is set against the backdrop of a brutal war between Christians and Muslims.

Priest Nikolai Agafonov also writes for children. Little readers really like his story “Puppy Sleepyhead.” He teaches kindness and sincere sympathy. After all, even for an adult it is not easy to give away what is very dear to him. And some little boy whose most important dream came true - he was given a puppy. And suddenly it has to be given away?

For his work, Archpriest Nikolai Agafonov was awarded the Crystal Rose Prize by Victor Rozov in 2005, the Prize of the Holy Blessed Prince Alexander Nevsky in 2007, and the Patriarchal Literary Prize in 2014.